Speaking of Total Healing.

Merry christmas everyone..

As early as i knew life more, all i prayed to God was to make my life an inspiration to whoever i come across.

My prayer was lord make me an inspiration and give me the grace of finishing..

A step backwards, 2015 was a year i prayed to fly….so many rocks to face and all but i kept telling myself i was going to get through it.

All that mattered was a shoulder to lean on and an ear to talk to. Did i get that?

Instead i got the rock more, a broken relationship who saw it coming def not me..That have me the keys to a shell.

2016….I saw myself struggling emotionally and physchologically😐😐. It really was..

2017….My best year yet, my healing year. In jan i got a bestfriend everyone needed, my dad. We bonded so well, if you know you know.. I saw a perfect soul in him.

I gradually saw myself mending again, i over did my daddys girl well. He made sure i read books that would build me up spiritually. He prepared me for a lot of things except his depature

When the he gave up on my laps, all i said was ‘Holy Ghost i need you now’ Immediatly i felt peace in me, i knew a saint was gone but a comforter is here.

I became an unbroken girl again, the holy spirit didnt only come to comfort me but also to heal me…Ahh so i was holding on to a finishing that wasnt gonna be.


Sometimes the rocks we face are needed to take us to our gold. I thought all i needed was love or validation from humans but all i needed was his presence and more of that. There i saw my life evolve i feel no hurt or pain but def i miss my dad.

I get to say, no matter what you are facing, ‘ Love God Totally and Watch him Work.

2017……my best year yet.

Thank God for the gift of the holy spirt.

Thank God for a clearer vision and purpose.

2018. Lets do this😊😊.



Out-poured Heart πŸ’•

Dear Angel😊😊,

Im sure you are having fun up there singing with your fellow angels..

Its been 6months today and all i can say is This God is too God. He thinks of me so deeply and highly, ohh those unbearable nights my pillows got soaked, my only consolation was Gods word, those days i randomly enter your room only to be slapped by your absence, those moments when all i needed was that hug and smile of yours 😒😒😒, God always steps in.

Over the months i grew so rapidly, im being reminded daily of your plans and Gods plans for my life, the uncontrolable tears i shed when i randomly came across your diary, what you wrote about me and what you wished for me on my 10th year birthday , i felt the injury deep that day 😒😒😒.

Thank God i saw you one last time, the Joy and Happiness you exhibted was undescribable, everyone was amazed the way we bonded, you made sure i retraced my steps with christ, i remember when you held my hand to the study and picked a book “Heaven is Real” and gave it to me, that still remains my most treasured and cherished gifts amongst others i got from you.

Thank you for being you and the best you.

Thank you for being the custodian of my destiny.

Thank you for being the perfect example of who i should settle with and who i shouldnt.

Thank you for giving me the best gift “Mummy”Β she reminds me daily of how you cherish and love me.☺☺

I miss you so so much, i send prayers to heaven daily im sure they get to you.

I will be stronger and be rest assured i wont give up.

Love you Daddy πŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’ž



For the past few days ive been having some thoughts running through my mind, ive really taken time to reflect on the decisions ive made both good and bad. Im thankful for such decisions, they made me who im today,they brought me to this point in my life. Thankfully im not were i used to be.

Main deal on my mind now is were i should be, what i should do,i think i should get things definate and straight.

Sometimes i sit down and tell myself i think i should be here,i should do this or that but no i dont get the drive to do that i just say it.

Presently,God is working it out,making sense out of every sensless situation,its really amazing to see things change right infront of you…but ermmm.. the wait can be painful.

I often tell myself, can i just be this already, can i just be me already?

Thank God i discovered me and my calling in my early years and its something i dont take for granted.

Getting rooted and stronger in the word daily, my mind has been brought in alignment with Gods. The wait is so easy now, i see the path clearer now. When things dont go as planned i quietly whisper, God whats the way out for good? its intentional i know.

I absolutely trust God now more than ever. Submitting my whole being to him is so easy now because he never disappoints.

Thank God im not only existing but also living in his will and purpose for my life..

Its been an amazing journey letting go of myself for a greater being.

In the course of this adventure called life we all should RE-DISCOVER ourselves.


Letter to my 23 year old self


You entered this year with so much passion and focus forgetting that the day started like a normal one,not until something clicked

   “”You are 23″”😯😯😯

I rememberd how you reflected back and ended up in tears.

But hey dont worry, i just want to let you know that for the past 3 years im so so proud of you, im proud of how youve been able to change your outlook on life as a whole.

You realised that life isnt a problem to solve but a reality to be experienced.

That didnt just stop there, now you are more determined and focused to implement and put those changes to action.

Do you know you will be tempted to settle in some areas of your life?? Please dont…

The options will be much,, please be more sensitive.

Focus on your focus… Focus on your vision and dont be medicore about it. Forget the hurt your heart nursed for years, it brought you closer to your purpose,it made you appreciate and cherish time and events.

Stop trying to figure out everything, life happens and everything will sort out itself.

There will be days you will want to hug your father so tight but then remember the last days you spent with him and how he became the perfect father you wished for.. Also remember his lifeless body that you carried it is so you become more driven in your career.. 

Yes you started this year with a few doubts but im glad you didnt allow it weigh you down. Im glad you built ladder out of those doubts.

Please dont compare your journey with anyone.

Baby, if you can think it you can be it.

Lastly, you are about starting you career now, while on that path please live in every moment of your life, love the lord,love unconditionally not everyone is going to hurt or break you.

Laugh often..

Im super proud of the lady youve become and i cant wait to meet the woman that lies inside you.

I get to say farwell 23πŸ“‘πŸ“‘πŸ“‘πŸ“‘πŸ“£πŸ“£


Unbecoming to Become

Hello everyone… happy new year😦😦sorry i know its not early but its not late either..πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‰..

I believe we all ended 2016 well, sure thats why we are here reading this. For me 2016 has been my best year so far.. Dnt be in rush.. i will give you all the gist.

God has been so good to me, im amazed each day of my life.i think hes been partial in loving me πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒ.

The last quarter of 2016 to be precise, my being was longing for nothing but a change. Change in what? Change in my person, i was tired of being the me i know myself to be, i was tired of being unhappy and depressed when things dont go my way, i was tired of being in a shell.

Days went bye and two scriptures popped up in me..

*Pursue peace with all men*

*And now oh lord, glorify me with your own self and with the glory i had in you before the world was*.

I whispered a prayer to heavens and then i realized for me to become me i will have to unbecome all i wasnt meant to be.

Just when the first scripture decided to work in me, i see life differently now, i try to view life the way others do,the me factor left without me noticing it did.. 

When scripture two decided to act i saw myself unbecoming to become. 

Someone said to me, joy it doesnt matter how long it takes that which you need exist so dont settle for anything less. Most importantly i see myself now as God sees me. In the words of Myles Munreo.. * Your potiential is as good as Goda potiential because when God wanted you he spoke to himself*.

Is the change easy? No i tell you but unbecoming is worth it to become.

Moral of it all…

Dnt stress yourself trying to figure out what your life will be ,submit your will to Gods will and you will be a suprise to yourself.

I hope we all have a beautiful 2017..😘😘


Life LessonsπŸ‘ŒπŸ‘ŒπŸ‘Œ

Life they said is the best teacher.
Life they said is unpredictable. Life they said isnt appreciated enough despite the fact that it has produced the best teachers and students.(Humans teach Humans).

Just having those headsets on, a quick journey down the past, wishing someone had told me somethings earlier about Life but thankful i got the message right myself.

I wish someone had told me

My brokeness isnt a prove i was empty but a transformation to someone i never knew existed in me.

Yes i have my opinions but that doesnt mean i am always right.

The fact i know so many people doesnt mean i have a friend.

Yes family is suppose to be blood tide, but family isnt always about blood.

That yes there is beauty in those tears that rolled down my cheeks.

That yes letting go hurts but its the best decision i ever made.

That the term being successful is defined by myself and i should never measure upto anyones success.

Back to reality, i  owned the story and was proud of it.


Dealing with Disappointments..

I remember growing up, i was drilled to celebrate my success and also my failures. As a matter of fact i was thought to pay more attention to my failures other than my success. I also remember when i randomly asked my mum why because it was really unbearable to me and she said* we often celebrate success forgeting the motivate or drive behind it, when we do we will realize that we ought to keep that motive and drive alive*.

I really didnt think i got the answer i wanted.

Now im older,im wiser and more experienced indeed the failures and disappointments are stepping stones.

Someone told me great experiences and breakthroughs are as a result of great disappointments.. i was like *hun*??? Pardon… why will i wait to be greatly disappointed when i can avoid it?

My dad always tells me the easiest way to be broken, disappointed and feel like a nobody is when you depend on someone. Yes that theory has been proven but hey it doesnt matter who you thought should be there but disappointed you, you have to dust yourself and get back up.

It doesnt matter what men see as impossible in you, Gods plan will surely prevail.

Often times we expect so much from people that when they dont reach our expectations we feel disappointed. The truth is are willing to do that which we expect and got disappointed?

If its possible then why dont you get you and do it instead of waiting for someone or having high hopes.

We all have had disapointments in the past or present, we all have encountered failures, we all have had that moment where throwing in the towel seems to be the best option. After all said and done, its time to use that experience to build that which youve always wanted, something you will look back and say how did i get out of it..

This will be so much easier when you are valid in your own skin, accept your failures, disapointments,own them but not too long. 

Free them so you can be free, often times we never know the weight on us until we let go of so many things…

Finally,life is full of suprises, suprise your fears with a turn around of faith, hope and believe.

You will be glad YOU DID.☺☺


Still Becoming?

A very late post i forgot to upload and it just popped up.. It was actually blogged about since december 2015 but posted october 2016… Life of a *Once a While Blogger*πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‘..

2015, where do i begin??

365 days of lessons wowww… It seems like a movie,almost like i got my life summarized in a page but at the end of it all i get to say thank you for the awesome lessons, i indeed passed all life examinations given it me because i became stronger for 2016.

   Even if i decide to forget all things learn, a question i cant forget is

*Joy are you a blessing or a lesson*?  Yes i know that everyone we meet is our teacher because that person teaches us something we have no idea about.

So what type of teacher have i been? The one that dispenses blessings or gives a whole note of lessons?

The expectations of man gets unnecessary high which often leads to great disappointment.

But when we have the ultimate confidence and acceptance of ourselves whole heartedly we can indeed have high expectations which often leads to great exploits, we can say that the lessons we learnt made us agents of blessings.

It isnt pride, its knowing your worth.

2016 kicked off well, hopefully for us all.

Hoping that before the year rolls out of which it is already..

We all will look at ourselves and feel the sense of completion not in knowing we have acheived so much but on knowing that we have accepted ourselves whole heartedly.

Hoping that we will look into the eyes of others and give them love and reassure them that they also have a spot on earth.

Hoping we give people peace with our words.

Hoping we feel confidence; safety and stability when the word love is mentioned.

Hoping we all become whole enough to surrender to the promise of love.

Hoping our fears are being kept at bay and our possibilites are entertained.

2016 is just an assurance that something new wont hurt..

And hoping at the nend we look back and say indeed this is an evidence that all things worked for our good..

How is your 2016 so far??

Shes Rare


“She knew she wasnt ordinary”.

She knew she was an assest and an influencer, she knew she could do better because she wasnt comfortable with the present.

Oh the thought that keeps reminding her that she is a world changer.

But then,there was this tiny voice she was finding hard to defeat that keeps taking in her head asking her and telling her she wasnt worthy of any.

She always saw that proverbs 31 woman in her,but she doubts if she really is.

Then the voice of her mind spoke,yes you can be all you want to be,all you need to be that is inside you and cant be taken out.

Then she realized that she has to let go of what she thought was and focus on what really is,she has to let go of her past success and failures knowing fully well that they have defined her enough.

She has to use her fears and doubts as stepping stones to becoming her,she has to let her pain go.

After she took the decision, she felt a whole lot was taken away from her,she didnt know she carried so much.

She then went back to the proverbs 31 woman and she realized that woman is rare, that woman maximized every potiential placed in her.

She asked “Is it going to be only about the proverbs 31 woman? What of the proverbs 31 man?

Then she remembers that she ought to meet her requirment of her requurment,then she will attract her worth.

Being successful isnt all about acquiring degrees or having a fat bank accounts if you ask me. Its all about finding fulfillment in what you do, knowing fully well that it can be used for a purpose greater than you. Its about maximizing your potientials in various ways.

Personally i think of women as being successful irrespective of what the woman has been through. They are multitaskers combining all in one,they are ordinary creatures but their actions arent.

A quick check

Ask yourself

Look deep

Search within, what is that potiential that has been calling but you keep declining?

Your present is your history that will be discussed in the future, make it memorable.


So few weeks back i got a mail from this person i havent met yet and for some reasons the person decided to share some personal experience that he has been through.. 

Long story short,everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about,be kind to people.

I was amazed when he said hes been following  my updates and all, thanks to all who do, you inspire me in ways you have no idea.

I personally know better that happiness is a decision not an event. When you wake up in the morning, you plan out your day do you create a schedule to be happy? I think most of us just take the day as it comes. True we should accept the day as it comes but i think you own your happiness.

What you own can only be managed properly by you. Life is way to short to live it pretending to be happy. A wise woman always tells me have a mind of your own and stand firm on your decisions, i didnt say getting what you want will come on a platter of gold but while you are being minned to get it, stay focused and happy because at the end no one remembers the days you were sad. 

The older i get, its real. 

Someone might probably be asking how can i be happy with someone or a situation that is making me or made me bitter?

Being genuily happy comes from true forgivness, accepting the person or situation and looking for the way forward. Easy to say , hard to do…. Noo.

There is no freedom in bitterness. 

I wish and hope that we all find our happiness restored, refreshed and redefined.